Lately I've been a total couch potato, spending most of the daytime in bed and watching films… I know it's bad and I do miss myself in the gym and all but I just can't seem to convince myself to do anything at this moment.
I dropped out of university and I'm unemployed - my future so far looks bleak blah blah blah… Who cares when it was my decision to give my life a refreshing break? I'm not complaining. I've had a rough tough time so far and I feel now is the chance to re-evaluate myself and regain meaning into my life.
Obviously it's painful to ignore the fact that I feel like a total failure at times, and therefore, being frustrated at myself. The only thing that has honestly helped me to keep away from overthinking is watching things. Passing time this way may seem like a waste but to me it's worthwhile because I can relax and at least gain the tiniest bit of entertainment opposed to everything else, which just gives me stress.
For the past few days including today, I've watched:
About Time (2013) · The Notebook (2004) · Time Traveller (2010) · The Girl Who Leapt Through Time (2006) · 5 Centimeters Per Second (2007)
Except for <About Time>, I've seen all the others before. I was surprised to pick up how the list has this shared theme of romance (first love), separation, time, and fate - all being cheesy and depressing. Perhaps it's what I'm craving. I almost felt jealousy towards the protagonists who are madly in love to the point where it becomes influential towards their life choices.
I've never been a fan of manga or anime drawing styles but <The Girl Who Leapt Through Time> and <5 Centimeters Per Second> both capture beautiful moments with emotion-triggering and heart-touching sentiments in breathtaking quality. Director of <5 Centimeters Per Second> Makoto Shinkai's use of lighting is so detailed. It not only impacts the atmosphere but also plays a role in expressing the characters' feelings.
The ending scene of <5 Centimeters Per Second>'s Act 2: Cosmonaut where Takaki is looking far beyond with Akari on his side is my favourite. It reminded me of the artwork of the band Nell's recent album, <Newton's Apple>. I adore Nell and especially this album.
NELL - <💿 Newton's Apple>
The band is named after the film <Nell (1994)> starring Jodie Foster. In the film, a young woman Nell has been disconnected from the world for a long time and developed her own way to communicate. This echoed Nell's wish to communicate with the public through music.
Holding onto Gravity (2012)>
Escaping Gravity (2013)